Please, Just hold my hand.

This week has been a rough one.
This week has been a lonely one.
I want to say that I am brave. God always proves me wrong.
When I thought that He had let me down He used my best friend to send me a verse.
Isaiah 41:13
"For I am the Lord, your God, who takes hold of your right hand and says 'Fear not, I will help you"
I desperately needed help this week. I was longing for affection. I secretly hold all that stuff inside.
Kills me to know all this time, all 2,000 years ago, how He knew that I'd need a Savior.

A day in the...hospital.

Things come up.
In my life, things that aren't so average.
This is the way the Lord shows me that He's not finished with me yet.
He's got a plan, and He's not forgotten what He's gonna do with me.
This also proves my human-ness, and how upset I get.
Yesterday, I read Matthew 11 and complained of how this burden is not 'light'.
The fact is that the burden is light because in Him I find rest. I read it backward and it made more sense.
Lord, teach me to pray, to pray more effectively; to pray believing.

Mark 11:24
"Therefore I say to you, whatever things you ask when you pray, believe that you recieve them, and you will have them."

What happens when Love happens.

A word on my mind recently is the word "redmemption" or to be redeemed.
I decided to do a word study. So I looked and looked and came up with these defintions:
1. Repurchase
2. Repair
3. To help overcome something detrimental.
4. To change for the better.
5. To make worthwhile.

Honestly, I was inspired to write this because of a friend's foot tattoo. She said she got the permanent ink set into her skin so that she would never forget the love Jesus had to buy her back from her captivity.
I've been up at night praying for these friends of mine whom have forgotten to say the least, it breaks my heart, I cry and I pray and I feel like I am doing nothing.
The Lord brought me to Isaiah 52:3,

For thus says the LORD:


“ You have sold yourselves for nothing,
And you shall be redeemed without money.”

The Lord's own words, it almost hurts to know that He knows me so well. That He knows we will sell ourselves for nothing, that we see ourselves as worthless when He's bought us with His blood. And yet He says that we will be repurchased without money.
The way He loves us in incredible, there's no real way of understanding this, but a good way to see it is when we are sinning, stealing out of the cookie jar, lying about being in earlier than we were and so on. This leads to hanging with the wrong crowd, ruining ourselves and seeing ourselves good for nothing but maybe one thing. This is when He says "I want YOU back!"
Not like Uncle Sam saying, I want you. We've always been His, we've just wandered away, maybe a slow progression, maybe fast, yet He cries for us to stop writhing out of His hands.
What I'm getting to here...well I don't really know and I know the people who I want to read this, will not, but here goes...
He wants you.
He wants to buy you back.
You've sold yourself for nothing.
And he's already paid the price.
He'll take that shriveled up red thing we call your heart and He'll make it whole, He'll repair it. These things take time, but He created time.
He always loves and He never fails.
Please consider this.
And please read Isaiah 52.
I'm done...never forget that I love you as well.