you haven't lost me yet.

so, in the past could weeks a lot has happened.
it wouldn't have been so dramatic if my doctors had not lied to me.
my plan had been to come back to CCBC, but things could have drastically changed really fast.
i went to see my neurologists's nurse...she explained to me that my doctors in the ER at UC Davis had lied to me and that I have two tiny growths in my lungs which could not be causing problems right now, but in the future could cause many.

i feel very often that suddenly my world is shaken...like everything is calm and then BOOM...nothing is the same anymore.
by the blessings of Jesus ad His provision for me I am back at Bible College and life is starting again.
This feeling is indescribable.
I am not naive...I know I am still sick believe me I feel it every day.
But this feels like life. I wake up in a bed that is not in my red room. i see my friends. i've been to the beach. i'm encouraged by awesome people. i've met awesome people. the Lord is working here. well, He is everywhere, no doubt about that. He works in Red Bluff too, but my life needed a change, I needed hope and that is exactly what Christ has given to me.
I was despairing, but the Lord has revived me. Only He can do this.
This love is something that I could write about forever and it would never be enough. I want everyone to know this. I want everyone to know this love I feel for my Redeemer, but sometimes it never gets out.
For my readers here....this has just been on my mind....2 years ago I was told I was going blind, and I was, there was no doubt about it and the Lord healed me.I went in for surgery and the Lord healed me right there before my doctors eyes and no one ever hears this story, but I wan the world to know! The Lord does miracles. He gives and He takes away. Lately I've been focused on the "taking away". But He may have taken me from Italy, He may have taken good health from me, but He has given me sight and it is amazing to SEE every day.

wow! yeah dude this is cool. I need nothing else. I have Jesus. Nothing can silence this love :)