"how do I get found?"

2 of fmy 25 credits i'm taking this semester consist of CCS...christian community service.
my CCS is going to Southwest Juvenille Hall every tuesday night.
last night was the beginning.
last night was a miracle.
I was incredible unprepared for what the Lord was going to do.
kate, elisa and I walk into Unit 4...the girls unit and after 5 minutes were sent to Unit 3, the boys unit. wow- my heart kind of dropped. I prayed the Lord would close their eyes to anything "girly" about us and that all they would see is Christ.
We all shared bits and pieces of our testimonies and the Lord spoke. Our words were nothing, the Spirit moved us by the Almighty's power. The Lord spoke and two young men were saved from eternal damnation last night! Praise the Lord? Yes, praise Him forever.
One of the boys said, " These girls said that the Lord found them...what does that mean? How do I get found? Does this mean I'm lost?"
Kevin explained this to him and He was set free from his chains of sin, Francisco accepted the Lord last night.
Shouldn't we all always be saying that...how do I get found? sometimes it's easy to feel lost. in their innocence of eternity I found how precious it is to be a babe in Christ. The need for answers. It's not always bad to be a skeptic.
We look for revivial. we look for something to keep us going. but we never look to go to the lowest places on this earth to find it.
The Lord brought our hearts to selflessness and He used us. Something for myself that I didn't think was possible.
In my situation I feel like I can't be used...ever. I am weak and powerless. But all to often I forget that it's not me that I'm living for anymore.
I live for Jesus, and in Him is my strength.
So, I really don't know who's going to be reading this. But just an update...on my life. The Lord is working mightily, and He is continually teaching me.

* Please pray for Quinten and Francisco who accepted the Lord Jesus as their Savior last night.
* Also for Jorge who was released last night at midnight, that his walk would be steady. He says he will come to campus church on sunday, pray that it happens.
* Also, for our Tuesday night team...Kevin,Ben,Jake,Kate,Elisa and I.

His Story.

what has He done for you?

this week for homework in acts class, we all had to share out testimonies with 3 different people.
i realized as i told my story that this is not mine, but it is His. all is His. my life is His, I sang that to the Lord last night as I worshipped.
this life does not any longer belong to me. I gave it up. I really, honestly, do not want it anymore.
it's awesome to hear other people's stories as well. victory stories.
stories of overcoming.
Oh, Praise the One who paid my debt and raised this life up from the dead!

I want Jesus to be the only thing that moves me.
I know this story is not over yet. there are more and more chapters all the time, but the book has no conclusion and as long as we keep trucking on this path I know it will not be easy, but it will add to this story of proving God true.

There is no way you can tell me that my God is not real.
Because He has proven himself ever true in my heart and my eyes and my brain and in my bones.

you haven't lost me yet.

so, in the past could weeks a lot has happened.
it wouldn't have been so dramatic if my doctors had not lied to me.
my plan had been to come back to CCBC, but things could have drastically changed really fast.
i went to see my neurologists's nurse...she explained to me that my doctors in the ER at UC Davis had lied to me and that I have two tiny growths in my lungs which could not be causing problems right now, but in the future could cause many.

i feel very often that suddenly my world is shaken...like everything is calm and then BOOM...nothing is the same anymore.
by the blessings of Jesus ad His provision for me I am back at Bible College and life is starting again.
This feeling is indescribable.
I am not naive...I know I am still sick believe me I feel it every day.
But this feels like life. I wake up in a bed that is not in my red room. i see my friends. i've been to the beach. i'm encouraged by awesome people. i've met awesome people. the Lord is working here. well, He is everywhere, no doubt about that. He works in Red Bluff too, but my life needed a change, I needed hope and that is exactly what Christ has given to me.
I was despairing, but the Lord has revived me. Only He can do this.
This love is something that I could write about forever and it would never be enough. I want everyone to know this. I want everyone to know this love I feel for my Redeemer, but sometimes it never gets out.
For my readers here....this has just been on my mind....2 years ago I was told I was going blind, and I was, there was no doubt about it and the Lord healed me.I went in for surgery and the Lord healed me right there before my doctors eyes and no one ever hears this story, but I wan the world to know! The Lord does miracles. He gives and He takes away. Lately I've been focused on the "taking away". But He may have taken me from Italy, He may have taken good health from me, but He has given me sight and it is amazing to SEE every day.

wow! yeah dude this is cool. I need nothing else. I have Jesus. Nothing can silence this love :)